only observation

i'm a bit feeling weird with myself and i don't understand what am i for now.i'm not sure because of either the surroundings or my owns which made me more passive,depressed and uncomfortable.

i've observed myself for a while and i recognised that i hadn't a passion enough for pushing myself to be conscious and energetic perfectly as uaual. i was in trouble which i hardly went through it. i worried and feared how long can i pass this time.But what i can do for now is only observation continually.